An Angle is Watching Us
September 29, 2005 11:02AM (MYT)

little Ray Ern ‘s first birthday is coming up soon, then in no time it will be Jada’s and then yours – Reeve. It seems like it was just 2 months ago when you were still in my arms weighing 4.5kg. look at you now, you stand well, you eat extremely fast, you crawl fast, you gnawed on any moving objects, including non-moving ones too at times…wow…and its been a wonderful ONE year already!
although you spend 45% (not half!) of your time in melaka with mah-mah, but each time when you are back with me, i will try to make full use of my time with you. i will skip gym during weekdays to come home to you sharp at 5 or earlier. i will caress you up and down the 3 storey house ya-ya has to show ah-ku, ah-mi and whoever that is there.
at night i will watch you sleep although at times i will be out drinking (tea la not alco la) and dinnering with friends, but believe me, mami really miss you for every second that i don’t see and sniff you. i pray for je-je and your safety and especially babee’s (coz he travels to some weird and most remote places in Indonesia).
i always bribe kakak with nice clothes, bras, good food, desserts, gold chain (during Raya) and ang pow (during CNY) so that she will not have the slightest intention to harm or abuse you and your sometimes can be difficult + rude sister (hahahah)

my typical message to Gohonzon before i sleep goes like this:-

POH YAU BABEE, RENEE, REEVE, AH-MI, YA-YA, AH-KU, MANN MANN, SIEW WAI, BEE LI, KEITH JAI…all peng-peng, onn-onn…drive carefully, don’t meet bad people, don’t see blood and live long (all in Cantonese)

dimple, dimple on my cheek

September 26, 2005 03:03PM (MYT)

dimple, dimple on my cheek…
mami and babee kisses it
one left for je-je and one right for me
one more perfect pair for Raine my sis to be

Reeve, did I tell you that you have a pair of very deep and noticeable dimple on your cheek the day you arrived in to this world…however after the 3rd day, the dimple on the left hand side had vanished leaving behind the one on your right. as for je-je she too has a prominent dimple on her left cheek, that makes you two a pair of wonders for babee and I as we both are dimpleless…some calls it facial defects but I call it HANDSOME + PRETTY!

Yesterday, you cried for your jut-jut when you were about to sleep, but i couldn’t find it, so i quickly gave u je-je’s (same brand) jut-jut to replace yours so that you would stop crying. You spit it out, i gave u another of je-je’s, you spitted it out again??? finally kakak found yours, washed it clean and inserted in your mouth…u sucked on it till your dimple grew from steep to deep and slept quietly within seconds…how did u make out which is which???

silicone or latex does make a difference…

S.M.I.L.E.S*
September 19, 2005 11:05PM (MYT)

Ever since you had your fever and purging the other week, you have not *S.M.I.L.E.D* to any of us. Each day we play with you and show you new toys but all you do is play with them, make some “eeee…ahhh” that’s it, no S.M.I.L.E.S!

I noticed that you have not been eating and drinking well too, you used to love water, but now, you would deliberately choke on it, spit out congee and move your head away from the milk bottle. I don’t know what is wrong with your appetite and your lovely S.M.I.L.E.S. where had it all gone to? I remember je-je used to detest milk at one stage, she would refused to swallow milk or any other food in to her mouth…it frightened us so badly that ah-mi darleng brought her to a child psychologist to find out what was wrong with her. You are looking skinnier and skinnier by the day, lost all the chubbiness and the double chin. Mami is not complaining, just afraid that you might be malnutrition.

The more I look at you now, I realized that you too look a little LCLY like Rayern, the only person that can bring *S.M.I.L.E.S* to your face now is Kakak Eko, each time you see her, you would chuckle so loud, eager for her to carry.

Yesterday after work, I brought you for a walk around the neighborhood, you saw a dog, you wanted to touch it, but I said “NO”, then you saw a cat, you moved forward, I said “UGLY”, you looked up and reached your hands high up to catch the birds…then you “baaaa…baaaa…boooo”. So cute… when we reached home, I brought you near Chickpea, you held his head, you rubbed his jaw. Chickpea was sitting motionless for his lil' master to admire, he was proud of himself, he sat with his jaw and nose high up, breathing heavily.

I then bathed you, now a days you don’t bath in you tub anymore, I would just placed you on the tiles and sit there with your toys while I shower you.
After showering, I fed you your congee, you cried, then kakak fed you, she made sure that you had atleast half of your congee before throwing away the rest. A half filled tummy is better than an empty one.

When babee came back, you crawled to him, he carried you but still no S.M.I.L.E.S. why baby…is it that expensive? but then you made his day by calling "ba-ba" "ba-baa" continuously for 4-5 times.

I put you to sleep at 10pm last night, you turned and tossed so many times, making funny sounds and talking to the bolster over and over again. Babee thought you had slept, so he came in, when you heard the door closed, you popped up by the bed and then u *S.M.I.L.E.D* to babee…I think you didn’t want to sleep so early. Babee asked me “why are our kids so active one ah?” we had to separate you two, so I brought je-je down to ah-mi’s room to sleep. I love hugging you two to sleep, it gives me the very devoted and warm feeling, I feel that you two are protected.

Ya-ya's birthday!
September 11, 2005 11:38PM (MYT)

i had a strange feeling when ah-mi asked me with intention if i wanted to join them for dinner tonight. without much thoughts, i said no and left for my foot reflexology with babee. after that, i met up with aunt AM and her other half at "Cravings" to pick up the mooncakes that babee had pre-ordered from her aunt. babee had always enjoyed this special non sweet recipe from The Flame days.
during dinner somehow, i asked aunt AM what date is it today, she replied 11th lo...i jumped up swearing S**T! it is my father's birthday tomorrow! immediately i called ah-mi and she said they were on their way down to Ting Heng for steamboat with other friends. i told her that i will come down to KL later to meet them. i asked her why she did not tell me just now that it is ya-ya's bithday tomorrow, she said she also cannot remember..then laughed wittyly. i told her not to be so pretentious, "you can't remember your boyfriend's birthday?" hahaha...she laughed and asked me to hurry down.
aunt AM and i went shopping in Giant sourcing for je-je's diapers and RE's mattress and all the other stuffs that she said she had to buy..."ngo yau ho toh yea mai" but at the time we left Giant, both were empty handed!
she brought me to Memory Lane to look for Patrick - The Red Dog and also TY Bear that was born on either 9th Nov or 27th Jan...don't have. Patrick was way too expensive so we left again...
at around 9.30pm, ah mi called my h/p, she told me not to buy a cake for ya-ya as he is afraid to be reminded of his age and the fact that he is getting old...i heard that and i felt sad, why do people have to get old? why can't human beings be imortal and there are other earths open to store them...
we arrived at Ting Heng, all in all there were 2 tables of his friends and only 1 cu-cu running about to accompany him. his face was glowing, he looked extra happy, there were 7 different types of liquor on the table. each one of his friends had brought a bottle. i chose wine, but i could not drink much as i started having headache due to the cigarette smell in there (i know this sounds absurd, though mami is a smoker, but still i cannot take too much of it). only 1 uncle was smoking and it causes so much of bad air...ya-ya asked me to bring je-je back first. so i did. i whispered to him not happy birthday but i will eat with u tomorow night as it was not 12am yet. he was happy that i remembered and said ok, ok...
Happy Birthday pui pa...this is what i call ya-ya from young..."pui pa" means "fat father" in hokkien and he calls me "pui kia" meaning "fat child". till today he calls you, Reeve "pui kia kia" - "fat child's child and Renee - "piu chiong" - fat pomfret. don't ask me why pomfret...it is just the way he shows his affection, i guess...

Love and Jealousy
September 11, 2005 10:09PM (MYT)

Each time we go back to Melaka, Reeve you refuse to sleep, your eyes would be red but you would still crawl all over the house to follow je-je and Marcus.

When they both fight, je-je would cry and you will definitely cry together with her.

She will ask you to be careful when you crawl so that Marcus will not step on to your hands.

This morning as she was running out from the kitchen, she turned the corner too fast, when she saw you on the floor, she tried to turn the other side so as not to step on you, as a result of that she fell down instead.

You were on the marble floor when you lost your balance, she quickly held and pulled you forward. Then she said “my darling, are you okay?” - Your sis is the sweetest!

From time to time she will bring your water bottle to feed you, if it is too high on the shelve; she would grab a stool to stand higher.

She chases Marcus away when he tried feeding you potato chips, “sailo cannot eat la”.

She demands for Marcus to bring out his toys so that all 3 of you can play together.

When you are standing by the coffee table, she will hug you from behind so if and should you fall, you would fall on her…


On the contrary, when ah kung carries you, she will demand for him to put you down as she knows ah kung is HERS! Hands Off!

At home, ya-ya can carry you but not ah-mi darleng.

You have 4 bolsters so she has also demanded me to get her 4 bolsters as well. Don’t think you can mix the pillows and bolsters for she knows which belongs to her and which belongs to you. She will not sleep peacefully until she gets the right match of equipment.

She will not allow you to wear her old pyjamas nor her old t-shirts (those that she can remember). “This is my one” she says.

You cannot use her pacifier, but she can use yours.

She flips when she sees you on her McLaren.

She flips even more when ya-ya carries you to go kai-kai.

I bought a fisherman hat for you the other day, when she saw, she put it on her head and look sternly at me “Renee wear first ha”.


Yesterday, when the relatives were down, they asked you “where is daddy?” So, this morning when you got up in the morning, you stood by babee’s side, tap on his face when he did not respond, you called out “daa deee, daaa..a..a deee”.He opened his eyes right away and caressed you. “Clever boy, who taught you that?…you smiled and clapped your hands with his acknowledgment. Je-je got up and started calling babee - “daddy” the entire day. Pure jealousy!

I taught you how to "knock head", each time you would push my forehead with yours and end up kissing my lips with your saliva filled mouth. Then je-je will always follow after you, she would watched us do that, then imitate you...so so cute...

She has received so much of attention all this time, so please excuse your sister…I have heard so much from other people that their kids will fight, throw punches on one another, pinched the younger ones or even bite their siblings...but so far from my observations you have the best sister anyone can ask for. She loves you so much and so do we...

Renee A Nuisance...
September 9, 2005 09:58AM (MYT)
THURSDAY 8th

I fed you mashed bananas, you licked the spoon and immediately your face shows the disagreement. “A few more spoons la baby” I said, “u need potassium you know”. But still the head keeps turning away from the bowl, so unlike you at all, usually when there is food, you would stick your face and hands in it. Then I opened the fridge to grab a strawberry for myself, this time you pulled my hands close to lick the strawberry, you liked it, u keep wanting more, so I mashed it and fed you. A few minutes later kakak blended a glass of orange juice for me, I gave u some and u finished it. I gather from this scene that you are like Rayern –both like sour fruits.

Mami went for dinner with Ah Yee at The Rib Shop. After dinner babee called me, he has landed and is already on the way home. I said I will be leaving dinner soon.

I reached home at 10plus and when I opened my room door, I saw both my precious on the bed with my babee. What a nice sight! All 4 of us were rolling on the bed, each time you were close to the bed edge, I said “fall down” and you recognize the word, you look at me and move forward again. Lights went out at 11.30pm. S N O O O O O R R R ….

FRIDAY 9th

Today my baby you turn 10months old, you woke up at 7.50am with a broad smile on your face. You stood firmly beside my bed and called out "uuurghh" I picked you up and sniffed you, already missing you before going to work. I left you in the room alone to take my shower, when i came back you were playing with the DVDs, u smiled at me again and continued...

This morning babee was supposed to send me to work, but when I came down for my shower, I saw ah-mi’s room door opened. She and ya-ya was planning to go to the market and they offered to send me to work. We went to Old Klang Road market to buy vegetables and had a wonderful plate of wonton mee at the opposite coffee shop. Renee Yap started being a nuisance after she saw 100+ in the fridge, she wanted me to order, I did, but she wouldn’t allow ah-mi to take a sip. She cried loudly and stamped her feet, ya-ya said she didn’t have enough sleep. She wanted her jut-jut, I handed it to her and she started her nonsense again. As I can never tolerate a child behaving this way, I pulled the jut-jut out from her mouth and threw it right in to the drain…

Je-je cried all the way from OKRoad to Bangsar. No one spoke to her, no one sympathise her, ya-ya explained to her why mami had thrown away her jut-jut…she stopped crying after a while when she realized no one was bothered at all. I reached the office and I got down without looking at her.

If you ask me now, I do feel guilty for treating her in such a way especially early in the morning. But I just had to…I feel that she is getting out of hand, many may say that she is cute, sweet and all, but she cannot be cute and sweet for the rest of her life. Manners and discipline implementation will have to start from young. I told babee about it and he too agreed. Sorry darling, mami is trying to save you from being hated by people that likes you so much now. It is just another learning curve.

Goodbye Old Blog, Welcome New Blog.
September 6, 2005 09:08AM (MYT)

I have been longing to change the colour of our blog, but each time I tend to procrastinate as I feel that I can always do so tomorrow. But Today, I have made up my mind! Although I like purple very much but I still dont like the purple that this blog is offering. This purple is so gloomy and upsetting.
After careful scouting, I have decided to use Renee's favourite colour - BLUE, just the right colour for my BABIES...BABY BLUE!
Now our blog looks so refresh, vibrant, cheerful and it makes me feel much younger. Do you not agree?

Also...

"Also" is the word that Renee has been using very often lately.
- Yesterday when she was in babee's car, she asked "babee, aunty joanne "also" got BMW ah", (referring to jiu-jiu's car)

- On Sunday morning, while having lunch with MM, MM had given je-je an angry stare as she had drank up all her 100+. So MM said to je-je "Renee, you are an irritating specimen", je-je replied with both hands on the waist "Mann-mann je-je, you are "also" an irritating specimen"

- Je-je is always on a full swing mode to irritate Mann-Mann, so each time they fight or argue, ah-ku will usually side her and not his own daughter. je-je will hug ak-ku and tell MM, "ah ku is also my baba you know". MM will just flip over and over again.

- Last week, when we were on Federal Highway, directly opposite VOLVO, je-je saw a huge "kuan yin", kuan yin usually holds a vase on her hand...je-je without second thoughts cleverly mummbled "mami, kun yum also yum seng ah?"

I JUST CAN'T WAIT TILL YOU START ASKING WHY, WHEN, HOW?...

bb manja
September 5, 2005 10:50AM (MYT)

bb manja...after you contracted your viral infection, you have always wanted babee to carry. each time you see him or when he puts you down, you will look at him wherever he turns and cry loud reaching out your hands. after he carries you, you would lie on his shoulder immediately as if you are thanking him and acknowledging him with an appreciation.

bb manja...each time we call mah-mah and put her on the speaker phone, she will call "Reeeeve" and you will recognise her voice. you always answer her with a number of "uuurrgh, uuugh...oooouuuhhh" and while saying that, your hands and feet will kick vigorously.

bb manja...mami will feed you everynight your congee while kakak have her dinner. you sit in your babychair, you will impatiently look at her to see if had finished so she can come over to carry you...and last night 4th Sept 2005, you called out a long "ka kaaaa" she was so happy, she came right a way to kiss you.