Distant
I have not been blogging since 18th of July, its the longest period that the blog has been left unattended and unupdated since i started blogging. i was not away nor was i too busy, it was simply because i had stumbled into the fact that i am 14 weeks pregnant and i am still finding time to digest this fact. mami love you two so much that at times i find it difficult to love you two equally or should i say fairly and now i am actually having a third baby? how to divide 33.3333333% of love among all 3 of u beauties? I shall leave that bit of worrying till 28th of Jan 2007.Mami is planning to quit my job to spend more time with Reeve as I am afraid that you will be lack of attention when the newborn is here as i will be nursing the baby while jeje will be mostly with AMD and YAYA. i am so scared that you will develop the 2nd child syndrome, i do not want any of my sweethearts to be left out of attention and TLC. Lately, i noticed that you have been extremely naughty and rebellious towards mami, everything that i hold or touch, you will snatch it from me and throw on the floor. You shout NO! at me when i come near you, you stare at me with alot of discontentment. You refused to let me come near you, you spring back eact time i reach out to hold you. at times i feel that, you don't even want to call me, the only time when i actually get to sniff and kiss you is when you are deep asleep or when u want to eat something i am enticing you with. Other than that, fat hope!AMD and MahMah said its because i am pregnant again, kids can sense the newcomer and that is why they are repulsive...your adversions hurt me so much but i can understand why u r feeling as such. i dislike this distress signals that i am getting from you, renee seems to be alright, i guess she is old enough to understand and be happy for us as a family. i am repentant for this accidental pregnancy, there is really nothing mami can do now darling...i will walk hand in hand with you to pull you right through, i have no itentions of hurting you and jeje in any ways - love mami