Mami is getting old
by reneereeve on July 26, 2005 10:23PM (MYT)

why this is the topic of today's article is because each time while mami is driving or doing something that deters me to be near the computer, i always think of so many stories and scenarios to kiss and tell. it usually concerns u - my sweetheart and ur brother - my sweetpie...times like now when i am actually writing, it takes me quite a while to jump start my memories...
ok lets see...
today babee and i drove 2 cars so that i can pick him up at Range Rover as he has to leave his car in for servicing. before we left home, babee asked u if u would like to follow babee or mami(in whose car, not when divorcing)? u replied so convinsingly - "hmmm, renee want to follow babeeeeeee......AND(loudly) mami". Then ur father carried u to his RR, as i was reversing the Volvo, u cried in the car, i got u in to may car and u sat there happily but not for long coz u started looking for babee again. i followed babee's RR closely as i didn't want to loose sight of him, i was afraid that u may start crying once u don't see his car.
this worried me...kids, they need so much of affection, they seek for attention all the time and no other type of love can replace parental loves, especailly maternal to be precise. i see you being so attached to us, you were wondering why we are not in one car? why did babee leave you, how come mami did not tuck you in my car instead?
you know sweetheart, after having u, reeve and babee in my life, i am so afraid of dying. i get excessively paranoid over safety issues - driving fast, drinking more that i can take, not locking the car doors, going out or coming home late, travelling to foreign countries...etc...babee at times say that i think too much, i am getting old and i am getting nuts...
i started taking Shaklee, all natural products, practically the entire range to keep me fit and healthy so that i live longer.
i cut down my cigarette intake from 12 a day to 3 a day.
i started going to gym, i only drink once in a blue, blue moon, a max of 7 glasses of whiskys' and mostly when ur babee is around.
i shop less so that i could buy u and reeve more important things (not toys) such as diapers, better milk powder and later on better education.
i started u and reeve on soluble vitamin Cs' to strengthen ur immune system so that u two do not get sick so often.
i rush home as soon as i can from work to spend time with u two...i miss ur scent, i miss ur touches, ur voice and most importantly i, like any other mothers/wife in his world would exchange anything at any price for u three to be safe from harm and evil and to be happy forever...
just like what aunty joanne had asked uncle jeff to do in hadyai - pray for our family, kin kin hong hong and peng peng on on, that is what i do and tell Gohonzon everynight when my aura and energy level is low. i want to watch u all grow old and have your kids and play with them while i start to write new blogs about them....hahaha..so far off
darling...mami is grateful to Aunt Christine and Aunt Joanne for introducing me and building up this blogsite for me, because in here i can describe to u ur growing up days, ur doings and sayings each day...and also my feelings and joy of having u precious as we walk through hand in hand in this undulating passage of life. whatever that babee and i have contributed to u both, u may not see but u can definitely "read all about it" all on this blog site!
I am writing so much that i do not even have time to read other people's blog and to log on to msn messenger to chat with those two "san sin" ah...hahahaaa